“Mawage. Mawage is wot bwings us togeder tooday.” – The Princess Bride
I’ve never thought much about marriage. Though we’re taught as little girls to look forward to our weddings, to dream of white dresses and towering cakes—it just never did much for me.
A big part of it was that I didn’t have a very good example of what a marriage should/could be. My parents were ill suited for each other; there wasn’t much love (that I could see) and there was a lot of fighting. But deeper than that, there was an air of unhappiness, a malaise that hung just below the surface. I could tell they weren’t satisfied by their partnership—though I was young, I was perceptive.
“What have you done today to make you feel proud?” — Heather Small
When I think about all the amazing people I’ve known in my life who identify as LGBTQ (lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender, queer) I am awed and feel slightly ashamed. So many of these people—deemed as “other” by a large portion of mainstream society—are so open with who they are, so secure, so … proud. There really isn’t a better word to describe it.
And yet I ask myself—have I ever been proud of who I am, really? It seems like most of my life I’ve found things to be ashamed of; shortcomings, flaws, imperfections. Why has it always been so hard to embrace who I am?
13 CreationsZ and Jessica Leigh Phillips Productions, 2014.
Short preview into the world of artist Zartaj Jehaan and contemporaries. Discovering the urban art scene in Brooklyn. A 13 Creationsz and Jessa Leigh Phillips collaboration..
Filmed in Brooklyn, NY.
Columbia College Directing III, 2007.
On ‘Love in Chains’, I was the director, Melissa Marlette’s personal assistant. Essentially her right arm, I had a variety of roles from pre-production through post, that included assistant producing, casting, finding crew, and PA work on set.